Archive | October, 2012

Weigh-In Wednesday!

24 Oct

Hello All,

Today is wednesday which means it is time for a weigh in! I weighed in this morning at 183.6. I am ok with this. In fact I am happy with this. I have come to some very helpful realizations in the past week and I am really excited.

I have come to the realization and accepted that this is a process. This process may be slower for my body then it is for others. This process will be hard. It will be different for me then it is for anyone else on this journey because my body is unique. It is going to lose the weight at its own pace, and there isn’t really much I can do to expedite the process. I just need to sit back and let it happen.

That is not to say I need to stop trying. Because that is the exact opposite of what I need to be doing. I need to continue eating well and kicking my own butt in the gym, but I also need to stop expecting my weight loss to be comparable to others. Because it is MY weight loss. Not theirs. Mine. And their body may lose it much easier then mine. I need to be able to accept that.

So as long as I continue to lose weight, I pledge to be happy about it. Even if it is only .6 lb at a time. Its progress, and I need to be proud of that progress.

I hope that you all are having a wonderful day and week. ❤


Weigh-In Wednesday!

17 Oct

Hello all!

Today is the wonderful weigh-in wednesday. And although I don’t have a great loss to report, it is a loss. I weighed in at 184.2 this morning, which is down .4. Almost half a pound. Not yet a pound, but a half. Its days like this I need to look at those pictures of the gelatinous 1 lb and realize that I did in fact lose that. And probably gained some muscle as well.

It just seems like I am in such a rut. I feel like nothing I am doing is working. Even with this challenge this week I still didn’t really do all that well.

I think I need to go back to my strict calorie counting. I had steered away from that in the hopes that I would be able to control myself, and I know I haven’t gone super crazy, but tracking my calories in a tracker sure is an eye opener.

Then you really look at everything in a whole new light. Now I actually have to be conscious about that creamer I put in my coffee, and if I put cheese in something that would otherwise be super healthy. If I am going to continue to lose weight at a pace more then a snail then I need to step up to the plate. I need to pour my heart into this. I want to be healthy, and there are so many reasons to be so.

I also want to comment that this morning I was absolutely heartbroken by my lack of a large number weight loss on the scale. I debated several times today if I even wanted to make this post as I feel like I am a broken record these past couple of weeks. Then I saw a post that TrulyJess made. And my thinking shifted. She decided that her plan wasn’t working, and that she needed to re-evaluate. And I feel that I need to do the same. It validated my conviction to do so.

This is my weight loss. This is my journey. I need to do it my way and what works for me. I need to be healthy and fit. I will do this. I will get there.

Now to spend the rest of the night devising this wonderful re-work of my plan.

Personal Challenge Update

15 Oct

Hey guys,

Its day 4 of my 7 day challenge and I am doing great. I have worked out everyday so far and have been eating really really well. I am feeling so much better and stronger. Its so crazy to me how different you can really feel.

Yesterday I think I killed it a little too hard in the gym. My legs are hating me this morning. It felt really good though. I have been going late at night to avoid the chance that someone else might be in the gym. My apartment complex has a super small gym, and I feel really uncomfortable when there are other people. But the awesome part about our gym is we also have raquetball coutrs. Not that I play raquetball but I can do drills that I remember from playing sports to mix up the workouts a little.

Overall I am feeling much better about my weight loss this week. Im hoping to put up a good number. Even a pound loss would be ok with me at this point. At least it would be progress. I will get out of these dreaded 180’s by the end of this month. I am determined!

I hope you all are having a fantastic week. I know I am. Look out for my weigh-in wednesday post coming up. Hopefully its a good one. ❤

I know that my desire to change is much much greater then ever wanting to be this way again. Lets do this. I have faith in myself.

7 Days: Gym and Clean Eating

11 Oct

I have decided that due to my lack of losses in the past couple of weigh-ins that I am going to be doing a personal challenge. I have decided that I am going to eat clean and workout everyday for an entire week. No eating out. No excuses. One full week of eating clean whole foods, and a whole week of kicking my own but at the gym. I need to kick start this weight loss and get out of the dreaded 180’s and I feel like this is what can do it.

I am tired of making excuses and I am tired of not losing. I will put up a big loss these next two weeks. I am determined.

Like I have said in some of my most recent blog posts, I haven’t been working out. And I feel like I have talked about it, but I haven’t really come to terms with it. I keep saying, “well I didn’t lose this week, and I know why. I didn’t work out.” But all I keep doing is saying it. I don’t go out the next week and kill it at the gym. I keep doing the same thing and expecting a different result. The exact definition of insanity. Oh boy!

So, I need to do this. I need to do something drastic to kick start this weight loss. Not drastic as in a crash diet, but drastic in that it is completely different then what I am doing, and it is the healthy way.

I get frustrated at people when talking about weight loss because I know how to do it. Not in the sense that I have done it, but in that I have been overweight for all of my adult life (most of my entire life actually) and I know what will work and what wont. But for some reason I choose to ignore the simple truths about weight loss that I know, and because of that I remain the weight I am.

I am going to do this. I have spent years educating myself about weight loss because it was easier to educate myself then it is to actually do it. But I am not going to just choose easy anymore. I am going to choose what is best for me. Best for my health. Best for my family. And that is to lose these unwelcome excess pounds. It’s going to happen. Watch me.

Weigh-in Wednesday

10 Oct

Hey guys,

So I cant exactly say I am happy about this weeks weigh-in. I weighed in at 185.2 which is a gain from last week. I feel like I am stuck in a 185 lb. rut, and I know that it is all my doing.

This week I did not work out that much. I ran twice and played volleyball once. It just wasn’t enough. And for some reason I convinced myself that it would be ok to eat things like chocolate covered graham crackers with my Starbucks. Like Starbucks wasn’t enough or anything. So in the short, I sabotaged myself yet again for another week.

I need to do this. I need to focus. For myself. I need to be healthier. I will get there.  I know I will.

Something exciting did happen this morning though. I signed up to receive a free consultation from Carlyn from JustKeepSweating. It seems that she is starting a weight-loss consulting company and is doing free initial consultations. I am actually really excited for this. Not only that I get to talk to her on the phone, but maybe she has a fix for this fitness rut that I seem to be in.

At any rate I hope you all are having a wonderful week! ❤

Blood Work…YUCK!

6 Oct

Hey all,

I had to get blood work done on Thursday. The reason why I was getting it was completely NOT weight loss related, yet the results became really really pertinent.

All of my numbers were good. In not anemic, I don’t have a thyroid issue, I don’t have diabetes, and even my bad cholesterol was great. But my good Cholesterol….not so much.

And you would think, well if the bad is good then the good being bad shouldn’t be such a big deal. But it is. Having low good cholesterol numbers can put you at just as much risk for heart disease as bad cholesterol. And in women the number needs to be over 50. Mine was 28. YIKES!

So what causes this? My doctor said its because I’m overweight, and not as active as I should be. I need to shed the pounds and I need to be active everyday. I also need to reduce carbohydrate intake and eliminate saturated fats as much as possible.

I guess all in all I need to just workout more than I have been, and just be slightly more selective in my diet choices. I still think that I am on track. This is just forcing urgency on an issue that I was already aware of and just need to pay slightly more attention to it.

Hopefully all of this works out and when I go back I will get better numbers. =[ We will see.

For now I am just going to up the exercise and make those slight diet alterations. I hope that you all are having a fabulous weekend. ❤

Weigh-in Wednesday!

3 Oct

Hey all

I hope that you all are having just as good of a week as I am.

Today I weighed in at 184.8. Thats a loss of 1 lb since last week.

I would like to be able to say that I am excited about that number but sadly I am not. Thats not to say that I didnt expect it. I didnt work out last week (besides my one day of volleyball). I ate well, which is half the battle, but I really need to kick it in gear if I want to reach the 170’s by the end of the month.

So this morning I decided to start out right. I woke up and ran. I didnt want to. And I spent probably a good five minutes trying to come up with a good enough excuse to not run. None of them were acceptable.

I may have been late. But I rather be late for one class then be late for life. So I went, and boy, did I feel good afterward.

SO lets continue October in a great way! What are you going to do to change this month?